motherhood

mother's day. i took some time this morning to just reflect. to process and think through why i love motherhood so much. 

all my life i have loved kids. well some would say i have been obsessed. there is nothing quite like the moments you have with them. their soft chubby cheeks. their squeals of delight. their silliness. how you can let yourself go and it just makes the moment more memorable. if i sing at the top of my lungs how much i love my girls...one of them squeals and one dances and sings with me. 

i never get that reaction from peers. =)

i feel like they pour an oil on the every day. every moment has that much more potential. 

sure there are fits and tears and strong wills and pouting. and discipline. 

but there are tea parties and picnics and saving each other from sharks.

reading books and dancing. making up songs. 

playing dress up and going on bear hunts. i was reading the bible and looked to see this:

 how sweet is she? how serene. cant get enough of her.

 Claire Bear proudly brought me home flowers yesterday with her Baba. We learned last year that nothing is open on sunday...so Baba knew. he knew what it would take to make a mama feel so so loved.

  last night drew was gone and i read through tons of mom blogs. my soul did a sigh. i love the community of mothers that i have entered into. that i can read things and laugh and reasonate so deeply with other mom's thoughts. that i can tear up and relate to fears and challenges that other's face in such a  deep empathetic way. i love that my daily life has completely changed. and that i can glean from other women on how to maximize...

  i sank into bed yesterday after hosting a great mexican feast for 7 people and just flashed through not milestone moments with the girls...but the small normals. the sweet morning cuddles. of hearing Claire sing when she thinks no one is listening. of being able to cradle sophia as i rock her and sing to her. night time routines of reading books and scratching her back.

   and then this morning. Drew told the girls that mama's love language is going on trips. i laughed.

 so we packed into our van and went off to a city that we have not explored.

  it is in the mountains with amazing views. it was misty up in the mountains so we did not even get the full affect, but we loved it. the air was so crisp and clean. and brisk. and we loved getting out of our city and sharing a meal and small moments.

 this little one has become a "player" in meals now. drew and i have been so used to talking, strategizing, debriefing, processing, and now we have little miss who want to enter in. and we love it.

sophia was sleepy and it was a bit cold, so Baba stayed in the car with her. We had asked claire " do you want to go on an adventure?" and she had said "yes!"

Later in the car, i heard her saying " yeah i'm skyted." as she talked to her doll. i asked her what she was excited about. she said " goin on 'venture"

 so i knew that i needed to make things feel like an adventure or she would be disappointed. We walked the streets, hunted for bears...fed imaginary rabbits flowers, found enchanted woods, and played hide n seek in a clothing store. 

it was Me and my buddy at our best. spontaneous. imaginative. playing off each other. 

 

i have been having these waves of emotions hit me of - i dont want them to get a day older. i love them so much right this very moment. but then each day, i realize how much i enjoy their growth..new stages...new development. So i will laugh at the days to come and enjoy my girls with all me heart!